I want to write this journal, in an effort to purge my mental and emotional sides of all the troublesome things that cross
my mind. I feel deeply about the many friends who support my rantings and allow me the space to vent, when the
home front becomes a strain on my nerves and mental state. I do not wish to be insulting or hurtful to anyone, but when
I feel some things, I really can't always just speak to just anyone about them. If someone should ever come across this
journal; please consider that some very important people play very important, vital roles in my daily life and I truly,
deeply love and adore them....I just could never injure their feelings or spirits by letting them "in" on my minds'
dilemma.
A little background helps. I was raised normally, and the folks still exist. The family members in general
are usual and boring. I got out into the world and that's where the story started getting weird.
My first marriage was shot-gun, and my son who is now 32, was our pride & joy. He still is. But the
husband was rather co-dependent on his family, and a touch too controlling, and obviously with my personality and all the
traumas we endured, things didn't work out. We lasted five years, and survived a house fire when we had only been
married seven months. Having lost everything, and the added dilemma that I was always afraid of thunderstorms
and lightning...the fire took it's toll on me heavily. We lost our 2 yr.old dog Mitzi - a wonderful, female, standard
poodle - she had a heart attack under the bed, on account of her fear of the fire. We (self & family, had to run
out in the storm nearly naked, since lightning struck and started it, near the wee hours of the morning.
It is a mental vision that still confronts me during a storm. I was a shrink case, and with a small family (son
9 mos. old then) and no where to really settle, and recover easily, I snapped. Spent heavily. Tried to recover
our "home" in the fastest , but not the smartest way - and all, without insurance coming to the rescue.
By the time we did straighten out from 1972 - the year of the fire - we were in debt, expecting my daughter , who's now
29, and suffering from extreme parental interference, and nit-picking; because of how rough we were making
their lives, leaning on them constantly for referree duty, or financial rescue. By the fall of 1976 we were a wreck,
and he started hitting me, and the physical stuff started. There was no such thing as domestic abuse in discussions
in that era, that came along about ten years later. His dad had to come save me from his son's rage, and
we divorced within months.
That took care of my life from February of 1969 to October of 1976. The house fire was April 12, 1972 - on
Maple St. in Rochester, PA. The kids were born : Nov. 17, 1970 and May 5, 1974.
By the way, I was born February 16, 1952.
I graduated Ambridge H.S. in 1970.
I was raised Catholic, and now Faithfully follow a Evang.Christian way of life, following Our Lord, Jesus
Christ. I found my true faith in the summer of 1994.
Space for entering saved pieces from E-mails, and Newsletters.
Happiness always looks small while you hold it in your hands, but let it go, and
you learn at once how big and precious it is.
- Maxim Gorky
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It is a curious thought, but it is only when
you see people looking ridiculous that you realize just how much you love them.
- Agatha Christie
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| He Is Everything
You Need |
| Pat Harrison |
| Faith Christian
Fellowship International |
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The Holy Spirit
is your Strengthener. That means He has the characteristic of being strong, having power and toughness. He has the power to
resist force. When you feel weak and don’t have the strength to resist something, you can draw on the Holy Spirit. You
can say, “Holy Spirit, You can do this in me.” You can do all things because He strengthens you (see Philippians
4:13).
He is your Standby. He stands by you...He is dependable! He is also kept in readiness to serve as a substitute.
If there’s something you can’t handle, He can be your substitute.
He is your Helper. He assists you and
gives aid to you. He contributes to your progress. He will give you relief. He has the power to prevent things from happening
in your life. None of us really knows how many times the Holy Spirit has prevented things from happening to us simply be!
cause we stayed yielded to Him.
The Holy Spirit also helps you change. Growth and change go hand in hand. So when
you’re growing in God, you’ll begin to change. But the natural man resists change; however, you can ask the Holy
Spirit to help you through those changes so you can grow, because He is your Helper.
He is your Counselor. He will
give you the best advice...the truth...and give you guidance. You can deliberate or consult with Him, and He will give you
a plan of action.
He is your Intercessor. He prays for you! He is continually praying in your favor and for whatever
you need. As you stir yourself up to pray in the Holy Spirit, so that you’re full of Him, you can draw on the Holy Spirit
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Remember,
"Something GOOD is going to happen!"
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Here I might include links to some of my favorite postings. If you're new to this site and
want to get an idea of what it's like, these entries are the place to start.
Perhaps they are not stars in the sky, but rather openings where
our loved ones shine down to let us know they are happy.
- Eskimo saying
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There is no pillow so soft as
a clear conscience.
- French Proverb
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We pray, alone or with others, for many reasons. Most of
our reasons have angelic counterparts. The more we can pray not only with the angels but like the angels, the more we understand
who we really are and the better we can heal our lives, because we will be in closer contact with the One who is our healer.
- Eileen Elias Freeman,
"Angelic Healing"
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Envy someone an' it pulls you down. Admire them and
it builds you up. Which makes more sense?
- Elvis Presley
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| God Is Your Safety
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| Bill Scheer, Pastor |
| Guts Church |
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Do you ever feel
like you’re walking through life on a tightrope? If so, you don’t have to be afraid. Think about it this way:
If you had a safety net underneath you, you could walk on a tightrope all day long without any worries, couldn’t you?
It could even be fun to fall off if you knew the net would catch you!
Psalm 91 says that God is our buckler, our shield,
our refuge, and our fortress. That means we have Someone to catch us if we fall. God is our safety net! The key is to believe
His Word. In Hebrews 13:5 AMP He has promised, “I will not in any way fail you...nor let (you) down (relax My hold on
you)! (Assuredly not!)”
What a promise! When you know God through His Word, you don’t have to live your
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Remember, "Something GOOD is going to happen!"
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Always remember: Joy is not merely incidental
to your spiritual quest. It is vital.
- Rebbe Nachman of Breslov
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